You are very welcome Jamie Michelle and I'm glad that you are so comfortable in your skin, you deserve no less.Jamie Michelle wrote:Thank you for this audio, Empress Christine!Empress Christine wrote:As promised, to follow up on my post about what type of sissy you might be, at viewtopic.php?f=17&t=14025, here are a few thoughts on sissies who love real men and love to please them!
Enjoy
http://eroticaudios.com/content/Christi ... ealMen.mp3
I used to fight against my feminine yearnings, but once I came to accept my feminine desires, it feels truly wonderful to be the feminine partner in a relationship with a manly-man.
Indeed, becoming comfortable in my attraction to men was one of the hardest aspects of accepting my femininity, as when I was growing up, a male loving another male was the most derided and joked-about thing there was, particularly regarding the male partner who assumes the feminine role during lovemaking. Being a feminine homosexual was the worst possible thing a boy could be. So it took me a long time for me to finally get over my fears of societal disapproval and come out of the closet as a feminine gay male.
But once I got over my fears and came out, I love it so much now that I can be feminine all the time, instead of pretending to be butch. It was so stressful trying to live up to society's expectation to be butch, as I never felt very comfortable trying to fit into that role. For one, my body is very dainty for a male. Second, I crossdressed in secret--and that while imagining myself being made love to by a masculine man. So when I was around other people in public, I would stress about whether my mannerisms, demeanor and body-type let on that I actually love being a dainty fairy in private who dreams about riding virile men.
Yet since I've come out of the closet, I have loved living my life as a girlie gay male so much. I'm male-to-female transgendered, in that I dress full-time completely en femme and I like the feminine pronouns, but I feel just fine with my male body without hormones or surgery. Basically I live my life as femininely as it is possible for a male to live without hormones or surgery (and without wearing anything fake, such as hip pads, cupcake, or wigs). So I also embrace an effeminate gay male identity, as everyone who knows me in real life knows that I'm a genetic male, and I'm quite fine with that. That all is to say, I love being as feminine as possible, but I'm also comfortable having a genetically male body.
And as you mention in your audio, Empress Christine, I do so much adore kissing and cuddling with my man. I love being held in his strong arms while French kissing him. It also feels so wonderful to me to make oral love to his dick. I love curling up next to him while taking his cock and balls into my hands and rubbing his shaft over my lips, and then taking it into my mouth. I love how as a feminine person I can see and feel the proof of my lover's lust in the engorgement of his masculine member. To know that I made a man pop such a boner for me makes me feel so sexy and desired--so wanted.
I find being the feminine partner of a man so wonderful, as I think a manly-man's erect cock is just so erotic. I love how veiny my man's dick is when he gets hard for me. And I love how his shaft feels in my hands. Just holding it feels so neat.
And I also love how a man's cock throbs and spurts when I have done a good job of pleasing him. I adore how a man's cock is like an instant feedback device, as I can tell how I'm doing just in how his cock responds.
My favorite though is when my man presses his manly member up into my little pansy-pussy. That makes me feel the most womanly of all. I love kissing and cuddling with my man any time, but the feeling of being held in his arms and swirling our tongues together while his engorged manhood slips up inside me makes me gush with such feminine feelings. That makes me just totally melt in his powerful arms as he takes me. I adore having my shaven legs up on his shoulders while French kissing him as he makes love to me like that. It makes me feel so utterly feminine.
I love being my man's girl. My boyfriend Len and I live as basically husband and wife, and I love living my life as a masculine man's wife. As you also mention, Empress Christine, it does feel wonderful to hold hands with my man as we go about in public, or to hold onto his arm. It feels really nice to me to let everyone know that I'm his lady.
Thanks again for your wonderful audio, Empress Christine! I loved it!
I understand and am glad that you are comfortable with your body, just the way it is. To me, it makes you seem like a happier person. But I also know that you aren't discounting those who do like to wear wigs, padding, and even have surgery...if they feel good that way and it makes them happy then we should be happy for them.